I need to realize that it’s okey not to be okey. I’ve been putting up a front and acting like everything is fine. Maybe it’s how I cope with things. But the sooner I admit I’m not okey, the sooner I can start crying, the sooner I can start healing. I’ve been holding it in for so long, because of thesis, I told myself not to cry, I had to be strong, focus and work on my career. It was one of the hardest things I had to do. To have so much in my mind and achieved as much as I had. I’m proud of myself.

I think when I say the word love, it’s like a commitment, I’ve never throw the word love around thoughtlessly and it’s not easy for me to say it because once I do I’m ready to stay committed and predetermined that he’s the one. Another reason it’s hard for me because once I’ve spoken those 3 words, it means I’m 100 percent vulnerable. I let down my walls, joy or pain I’m vulnerable to both. You give them 100 percent trust in your affection and that’s is absolutely scary.

These are the values I have for love, so it’s not easy to be okey.

Today will be the day to admit that I’m not okey. I will pack and box everything away. Start fresh. Don’t dwell. And let another into my life. Be vulnerable again. I need to tell myself that. Don’t waste any opportunities, To fall in love again. Because this love has no more love for me. He’s moved on and he’s seeing other men. I should do the same.

And remind myself to be happy Because I’m the only one can make that happen.

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When you think you’re strong.

but when hit with the actual situation. You realize how weak you really are.

theanswerplz asked: Hi! I like your blog and your designs! And I'm from Toronto too! Is photography part of your major? And do you have any more pictures of your work?

hey, sorry for the late reply. I just don’t go on here as much anymore. Oh nice, from toronto? what are you studying? And photography is not part of my major but there is photography in graphic design, so its kind of a skills we need to learn on our own. Plus, I’ve always interested in photography! hmm, more pictures? maybe when I get my website finish.

Anonymous asked: Hey sir, it's Mister A again, long time no speak. Ive been reading your posts, and it kills me to see you in so much pain. Stay strong mr. Henry Nguyen! Sincerely, mister A xoxo

haha thank you, Mister A. I am trying my best, But I think I failed miserably last night -.-” I love my friends but they are also the worst. When they start making a big deal out of things, I start thinking about the past. Its an absolutely long story. Sorry, you’ve become an outlet for me to pour my feelings haha. enough of boring me. How about you? anyone important in your life?

I’m slowly starting to feel nothing. I’ve become so numb to this idea of relationships.

everyday I still believe something special was lost.

It still smile from time to time when I reminisce about the past

is it sad that I feel no desire to meet or talk to any boys? I think I’m at that stage where I need to keep to myself and work and focus on myself. Love is no longer my priority.

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